Life

Direction

Well Christmas Eve service went very well actually much better than what was expected at least by me.  I just pray that next year I will not be the one to organize and lead the service. But all in all I am pleased with everything that happened and how people voluntered.  Christmas was also good.  It was nice to just stay home and play cards with the family..we have a great time.  I have a busy week ahead of me with youth group, the office christmas party, hanging out with Jess which I am really looking forward too, and gotta fit in a Sloopies trip sometime too.  Oh so much to do and so little time.

Otherwise in my life I just can't seem to shake this feeling of discontent. I would just like some direction of where my life is going instead of this feeling of standing there and looking off into black space.  I know that God holds my future and I do not need to know what exaclty lies ahead but something needs to change in my life because I am not happy and content with where I am now.   I know this will come as a shock to some because people think my life is perfect but remember noone has a perfect life.  God has blessed me and given me so much and I am happy with that.  I just can't describe this feeling deep inside of me. I would like to go back to where I was a year ago so happy with my life and content with where I was. I will just have to continue to pray and when God feels it is the right timing he will show me where to go because he is the one in control of my life.

New Found Hope

Had a great weekend.  Was able to hang out with Jenny on Friday night and catch up with her.  I miss not hanging out with her.  Had some good conversation which got me to really thinking.  The Apologetix concert was Saturday night and we had a 18 that went which was awesome and the place was so packed with people it was standing room only and still flowed outside.  In fact they started the concert about an hour late because people kept coming.  It was crazy but so awesome to see that many people pour in for a Christian concert.

Also came to a new realization this weekend.  I need to focus on my future and what is going on in my life currently.  I have much that is going on in life right now and my focus cannot be on the past.  I am beginning to put things away and move on.  God showed me this weekend that when I am ready he will show me where I need to be and what I need in my life.  I know I had an awesome Love in my life and wish that everyone could experience that kind of Love and would still like for him to be in my life but I can not reach out unless he does it just hurts to much.  When God knows I am ready he will bring a new even more perfect Love into my life one that will make my cheeks hurt again from smiling so much and even though what I had before was awesome and I thought it could not get any better it will be even more spectacular.  I know God has alot in store for my life and I am ready for it when he brings it my way.  His timing is so much better than mine I just need to remember that. He has always taken care of me and knows what is best for me.  He is the best and knows all!!

Changes

Well things are always changing that is the only thing that stays the same it seems. Once again I am single I guess things just don't work out the way you want them too. God does have a plan for both of us and I am excited to see what the future holds for my life.

It's a New Day

It's a new day
Oh, it's a new time
And there's a new way
I'm gonna live my life
All the old has, passed away
And the new has come
Thank God, It's a brand new day

Well looking at the calendar today I sit back and wonder where September has gone.  In fact where has the past 4 months gone.  I knew this summer would be busy and I kept thinking to my self well after July it will slow down and then I said Ok after August it will slow down and on and on.  Well I am looking at October and that will be jamm packed as well which is my own fault but I have events for the Youth and now is the time to do them.  Can't change the fact of when Hallow weekends, Hell house, or concerts come.  But hey I enjoy the youth group so much and love to see them have fun and want to hang out with each other.  So October is on the rise and I am ready for it.  I am getting charged and looking forward to everything it brings. 

I am ready for the fall weather with the leaves changing colors and cooler temperatures.  I am ready for Thanksgiving in November and not to rush Christmas but I am also ready for that as well.  It seems to put most people in a good and giving mood the whole Holiday cheer thing.  I am looking forward to spending time with family, friends, and those who you love. The best thing about December this year has to be the fact that I will get to see one of my bestest buds coming home from California for a visit.  Man is she gonna freeze.  Gotta bring out those sweaters again Jess. hehe.